end of summer

a short story

Her nails were bitten down to stumps; chipped black polish heightened the gruesome look of her bloody fingertips. Her heart felt permanently in a state of distress; most days, she hung somewhere on the precipice of tears and panic. Nervous thoughts bounced across the spaces of her brain relentlessly; there was little rest for the anxiety inside of her.

Today was no different. She sat in a bright green lawn chair, trying her best to cherish the first signs of fall; the sun still hung bright in the sky, but a crispness lingered in the air as a reminder of the ever changing seasons. She talked about the weather and the news; she danced and laughed with her friends to the sounds of an end of summer concert. She tried her best to ignore the beating in her brain, the whisper telling her to worry; it all felt familiarly forced. She’d spent every second, for as long as she could remember, warding off an inner darkness, a sense of desperation and despair that seemed to lurk in even the most subconscious corners of her mind. She counted through the reasons not to worry; an inner monologue played through her head, rehearsed, completely memorized by now, a series of things she could tell herself to try to calm down. She focused all of her energy on only this moment, urging her inherent anxieties away. She reminded herself constantly that today was a good day, trying in vain to quiet the anxious whispers in the back of her mind.

Concert crowd, hands up, toned

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badlands review

Badlands from Ashley Frangipane, better known as Halsey, is the electro alt pop convergence you’ve been waiting for.

Halsey

Fewer albums have held such interesting and entertaining capacity for me. I love any artist who creates a concept album; the artistry behind Badlands seems instantly enhanced by the thought and detail of the world inside of Halsey’s mind. There’s an eclecticism to the collection of tracks that keeps you from ever getting bored as Halsey takes you on a tour through this imaginary city.

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i got better: a thank you to bleachers

I am always listening to music.

It seems like whenever I’m listening to music, I’m always listening to Bleachers.

Sometimes I am listening to be listening, and sometimes I am feeling.

A year ago, I was on the front end of what was a really bad year in a lot of ways. I felt lost and lonely and broken.

Jack Antonoff and Bleachers just celebrated Strange Desire’s first birthday, so I think now is a good time to write a long overdue thank you note.

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i am obsessed with hana

If you haven’t listened to her yet, I need you to look up HANA immediately and fall in love.

HANA

I found this amazing song Clay a few weeks ago, per suggestion of the inimitable Grimes, and since, I’ve been incapable of listening to much else. We should all be thanking HANA for doing the music industry, our ears, and our hearts a huge favor.

I’m obsessed with finding music with meaning, like real, emotionally charged songs with depth and dimension. We have enough single ready, one dimensional songs crafted solely to climb the charts. I stopped being impressed by that long ago, and HANA isn’t doing that.

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new music tuesday

the good, the bad, and carly rae jepsen

On Tuesdays, no one is a better friend than those people at Spotify who spend their work hours compiling and pairing songs into every sort of playlist imaginable because on Tuesdays, those lovely little music loving humans tell me exactly what new songs to listen to. I have a mad appreciation for the oldies, but really pride myself on knowing what artists and songs are gonna blow up before the masses ever hear ’em, so I like to hear music the minute it comes out.

So after a perusal of Spotify’s list, and a visit to iTunes to make sure there was nothing I’d missed, I wrote up a few thoughts on what you need to listen to, and what you need to sacrifice a sacred skip on.

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fab five: february edition

So here’s a new thing I think might be cool to try.

I’ve gotten to this incredibly cool place in life where I basically ignore everything that is supposed to be cool.

I’ve just decided that I know who I am and what I like well enough to make my decisions without the help of society’s opinion leaders. And honestly, I’m pretty sure that’s the way opinion leaders think, so I’m pretty pumped about this way of thinking.

With that principle in mind, I’m going to try to do a monthly post listing five random things, people, places, whatever, that I’m currently digging. It’s subject to change pretty easily, and my taste is undeniably quirky and unique, so the things I talk about aren’t always going to be groundbreaking or innovative. Nonetheless, I think it’s gonna be pretty awesome. Continue reading