end of summer

a short story

Her nails were bitten down to stumps; chipped black polish heightened the gruesome look of her bloody fingertips. Her heart felt permanently in a state of distress; most days, she hung somewhere on the precipice of tears and panic. Nervous thoughts bounced across the spaces of her brain relentlessly; there was little rest for the anxiety inside of her.

Today was no different. She sat in a bright green lawn chair, trying her best to cherish the first signs of fall; the sun still hung bright in the sky, but a crispness lingered in the air as a reminder of the ever changing seasons. She talked about the weather and the news; she danced and laughed with her friends to the sounds of an end of summer concert. She tried her best to ignore the beating in her brain, the whisper telling her to worry; it all felt familiarly forced. She’d spent every second, for as long as she could remember, warding off an inner darkness, a sense of desperation and despair that seemed to lurk in even the most subconscious corners of her mind. She counted through the reasons not to worry; an inner monologue played through her head, rehearsed, completely memorized by now, a series of things she could tell herself to try to calm down. She focused all of her energy on only this moment, urging her inherent anxieties away. She reminded herself constantly that today was a good day, trying in vain to quiet the anxious whispers in the back of her mind.

Concert crowd, hands up, toned

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i got better: a thank you to bleachers

I am always listening to music.

It seems like whenever I’m listening to music, I’m always listening to Bleachers.

Sometimes I am listening to be listening, and sometimes I am feeling.

A year ago, I was on the front end of what was a really bad year in a lot of ways. I felt lost and lonely and broken.

Jack Antonoff and Bleachers just celebrated Strange Desire’s first birthday, so I think now is a good time to write a long overdue thank you note.

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watch this now: unbreakable kimmy schmidt


For the sake of time, let’s just go ahead and acknowledge the greatness that is Tina Fey. She is without a doubt one of the true wonders of the world. The woman is a pop culture miracle worker; I mean, we can thank her for Mean Girls. She gives so much all to entertain our simple minds.

So now that you’ve been fired for forgetting to go to work thanks to House of Cards, you may as well put the final nail in the coffin that is your social life as well, and watch Tina’s latest project, Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt


The show somehow manages to make fun of our generation, poking fun at our technology dependence and that sort of thing, while also catering specifically to us.

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the brat pack 2.0

I am obsessed with the 80’s. I was not alive during the 80’s, but I should’ve been.

Synth heavy pop, John Hughes films, and the ushering in of the grunge punk style; these are a few of my favorite things.

Anyone who’s at all aware of 80’s pop culture has heard of the Brat Pack, and if you haven’t, you’re sorely missing out. The Brat Pack was the nickname given to a group of young actors who dominated the screen back in the day, primarily seen in the coming of age films the 80’s are known for. Most specifically, the Brat Pack included the group of actors who starred in The Breakfast Club and St. Elmo’s Fire, but essentially that term is an umbrella for that group of artists and creative types who were just constantly teaming up with each other and collaborating to produce all these iconic works of the 80’s.

Now, the Brat Pack is a thing of the past, and the kids who grew up obsessing over those actors are the ones running the show. Years from now, who will we look back on as the iconic artists of our generation? Who will we look back on and see as this group of artists that made up a team to promote each other and push each other?

Meet the Brat Pack 2.0.

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can I be an antonoff: looks and lyrics to make you love rachel + jack

Like Mary-Kate and Ashley before them, Rachel and Jack Antonoff are forging a path to long lasting fame with the help of their sibling counterpart. While not actually twins like the Olsens, the two do sometimes dress alike, an obvious testament to the closeness the two share.

They’re an incredibly cool fashion designer and musician in their own right, but the way they are constantly collaborating with one another makes them an even greater threat within the pop culture realm. Jack has helped produce and act in the videos Rachel uses to promote her line each season; Rachel promotes Jack’s music in those videos, and recently designed a new line of merchandise for Jack’s band Bleachers. Their lives are both overwhelmingly interesting and it’s plainly obvious that they’re both avid supporters of one another, of being true to yourself, and pursuing your passions.

Rachel and Jack Antonoff

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